Office by Alex Penny
your name is CHESRA and you have been addicted to HOMESTUCK for a couple of months now. You are also an avid fan of DOCTOR WHO and MERLIN.
You enjoy DRESSING UP AS FICTIONAL CHARACTERS. You also enjoy READING BOOKS books, particularly of the YA GENRE.
“Just… take it.”
and you cry and your tear stains spell out ‘merthur’
#because that fucking scene #actually #HAPPENED #merthur #like what the fUCK OH MY GOD ARTHUR LITERALLY GAVE HIS MOTHER’S SIGIL TO MERLIN #HOW ARE THEY NOT IN LOVE SHOW ME A UNIVERSE IN WHICH THEY DO NOT MEAN ABSOLUTELY E V E R Y T H I N G TO EACH OTHER #BUT YOU CAN’T BECAUSE IN EVERY LIFETIME THEY’LL FIND EACH OTHER AGAIN BECAUSE DESTINY DOESN’T HAVE A TIME LIMIT #FUCK EVERYTHING MY HEART HURTS WHY DID I START WATCHING THIS SHOW #IT’S LIKE MERTHUR CAME INTO A ROOM AND PUSHED ME OVER AND WENT ‘FEEL ALL THE FEELINGS BITCH’ AND I NEVER GOT UP AGAIN
yeah but
do you know what didn’t get deleted?
merlin’s mother holding merlin’s face in her hands and telling him that she can see how much he needs arthur and how much arthur needs him and how they need to stay together because they care for each other and look after each other and because arthur is brave and loyal and he’s changed merlin so much in just a few months
#and you know what? #they didn’t delete the look on arthur’s face in 4x02 #when he didn’t think he would ever see merlin alive again #and he was just fucking hurt and heartbroken and he didn’t want to carry on #he wanted to TURN BACK AND TAKE MERLIN HOME #HE WANTED TO #GIVE UP THE QUEST TO SAVE CAMELOT #GIVE #UP #THE #QUEST #TO #SAVE #CAMELOT #JUST SO HE COULD GET MERLIN BACK AND SIT BY HIS BEDSIDE AND WAIT FOR HIM TO GET BETTER
yeah and excuse me but
you know what else didn’t get deleted, either?
the goddamn look on arthur’s face when merlin came back
that moment long after he’d resigned himself to his own death, and merlin not being by his side; that moment where he didn’t think he was ever going to see merlin again, at least not in this lifetime; that moment where all of that was proved wrong. how you can see, all in a moment, this heavy black cloud that’s been hanging over arthur’s head since the moment he sent merlin back to camelot with lancelot, and how all at once it just fucking disappears the second merlin walks in with that giant bloody smile of his, how arthur’s face clears and he huffs out this sigh of disbelief and relief. how suddenly arthur looks like the brave man he was when they left camelot on this quest, because he’s been feeling empty since merlin left and now—now he feels whole again and now he knows he can face whatever lies ahead because merlin is okay, and merlin is here, and that’s all that arthur needs.
well fuck
fuck
and you mustn’t forget
that the rockfall was never deleted. the moment when arthur was doing everything he could ever possibly do to protect himself and to protect merlin because merlin had been injured trying to protect him. the moment when arthur turns and sees merlin disappear and he knows he’s in danger and there is absolutely nothing arthur can do except scream merlin’s name and hold a hand out in vain. a hand that he thinks will never hold merlin’s again.
they never deleted the pure fear on arthur’s face over losing merlin; over failing to protect him; over having to let him go.
they didn’t delete the moment where agravaine tries to tell arthur there’s no sign of merlin anywhere and that it’s useless to keep searching for a servant, and arthur simply holds up a hand to silence him mid-sentence because he’s not going to fucking hear it.
they didn’t delete gaius asking where merlin was and arthur immediately responding with he’s alive, because even though he doesn’t even know that for a fact, he can’t bear to think of the alternative.
they showed arthur reaching his breaking point after sending out so many men on searches that turned up no sign of merlin, and finally going out to look for merlin himself—the king of camelot, leaving camelot behind on a quest to find his manservant because do you really expect me to just accept that merlin’s gone? because that’s absurd, because he’d never accept that and he’ll search as long and as hard as it takes because this isn’t just his manservant. this. this is merlin.
and we saw arthur finding him. we saw the way his face changed from suspicion to disbelief to pure fucking joy when he found merlin standing in front of him, covered in mud from head to toe, and the way arthur couldn’t possibly have cared less about that when he simply strode forward with the happiest expression on his face, and pulled merlin into an embrace looking like it was the only thing he’d wanted to do for days. how i thought we’d lost you, as if even arthur felt he was searching in vain by that point, like he’d all but resigned himself to the knowledge that he was never going to see merlin again but he was still searching anyway because he couldn’t bring himself to stop, and then—and then, against all odds, he found him again, and he always will.
y e s
and they didn’t
fucking
delete
the moment when arthur has lost his father - when he has lost everything - and he’s spent a night alone with the dead body, trying to steel himself to push all his grief and unanswered questions away and rule the kingdom all on his own
that moment
when he opens the doors and finds merlin sitting outside, waiting, because he didn’t want arthur to feel that he was alone
as if merlin’s presence would be felt by arthur even through the thick wooden doors and the cold night air and the gasping void of loneliness
and he tells merlin that he’s a loyal friend because that’s all he can say at that point, because in the face of the kingdom he’s about to take on entirely on his shoulders alone, that’s the one thing he knows beyond a single doubt: merlin is a loyal friend.
or how merlin went back during the finale to check everything was okay in the caves they were going through, and arthur couldn’t help but worry about him, made him promise he’d be careful, and even then had to go back and look for him. how he finds him and when merlin asks if he was worried, he admits to him that merlin is the only friend he has… and he couldn’t bear to lose him. and he covers it up with typical pendragon sarcasm and an attempt at apparent apathy because he doesn’t know how to be that open with his emotions without wanting to curl into himself afterwards, but it’s as if, if there’s any person who can draw him out of that shell, it’s merlin; merlin, who arthur can’t help but love and care for, can’t help but risk his life for and try to express how much merlin means to him because it’s merlin, it’s his whole world and it’s everything that holds him together.
because arthur remembers every time merlin has ever saved him. he remembers standing in the great hall and watching merlin swallow poison just to save him. he remembers the look on merlin’s face, the way their eyes met, as merlin tipped back the goblet. he knew it would kill him but he didn’t care. he said ‘no’ and ‘it’s alright’ as if arthur was ridiculous to even suggest that merlin left the poison alone; that merlin saved his own skin instead of arthur’s.
and arthur remembers how merlin has always stuck by him. how he refused to let arthur go and see morgause on his own. how he stopped arthur from killing his father by speaking sense to him, by telling him that he’d been deceived and that it wasn’t his fault, but he needed to put it right.
arthur remembers that merlin followed him to the destroyed druid camp and probably saved his life, because arthur had all but given up before he knew that merlin was going to be with him.
and arthur remembers the sinking feeling of absolute dread when he tried to barter with an enemy queen, and merlin was dragged into the tent. he remembers the guilt of taking away another’s true love and the white hot stab of terror at the thought that maybe - just maybe - this queen will be cruel, and take away arthur’s love as well.
but more than anything, arthur remembers every moment of every day when merlin looked him in the eyes and didn’t leave him; every moment when merlin approached him when everyone else had left him alone; every moment that merlin picked him up after he’d stumbled and fallen. he remembers every moment that led him to where he is now, the ruler of a kingdom that’s slowly growing into the greatest any man has ever seen.
and he remembers that he never would have made it here without merlin.
arthur always says that if he wasn’t a prince, he and merlin would probably “get on”
but
as it is
arthur is a prince, and he and merlin are meant to be
the end
(via freemah-ness)
Can I just say how well this couple illustrates the possibility for harmony between benders and nonbenders?
Because here we have the daughter of a powerful, influential non-bender family whose mother was killed by a firebender, and yet she sacrificed everything to protect the boy she loves - a firebender - because she understands the importance of judging individuals for who rather than what they are.
Gorgeous.
(via the120dreamers)
sarah-wishes asked me for a rebloggable version of this SO HERE YOU GO
THIS x INFINITY OMG RIKUSORA MOST CANON OTP TO SAIL THE KINGDOM HEARTS SEAS
